More than a post.

I think dance is a long term obsession. I can't stop thinking about it. I finally got my splits! It seems like for every one thing I accomplish there are 15 new ones to try. That whole fasting/ calorie restrictiong thing is not happening. I like food too much and some of it could be unhealthy for young people. I am eating more fruits and vegetables and everyday being a vegan becomes easier. It has been about a month into school and no one has noticed that I don't eat meat or cheese or stuff like that. I'm going to see if I can go the whole year. School is fun, but not at the same time. IB is a great program a lot of work but it isn't like they are just giving out worksheets to fill up our time.

Well I just wanted you guys to know I didn't die or go into a coma. =)

Hibernation

I've come out of hibernation, and I'm going to give you some important updates! =)

1. I made the dance team!!! The auditions were in June. I figured I have nothing to lose so I might as well try. I'm actually surprised I made it. I'm so excited. There is a second audition (I'm going just for the heck of it. It is the same routine as the first one, so it will be super easy.) Then the "boot camp" is at the end of the month for 5 days. I've been training so I will be strong and flexible for it. I don't want to be a wuss for my first impression.


2. I almost have my splits. I've been stretching an hour every night for a month. I'm so close. I think 1 more month at the most and I will have it on my right and left sides. The center could take a year or longer. My hips just don't open very well that way.


3. I almost have elephant pose. That is the pose in the picture. I've come so far in yoga. I've only been doing it for a year, but wow. Last year I was just lucky if I could hold myself up in wheel/bridge/back bend (the same pose pictured, but with your leg down.)


4. I'm switching my diet. (yet again) I eat wayyy too much junk. Just and example, jolly beans, frosting (amazingly there is vegan frosting at wal-mart, who knew?), fake cheese, Macaroni, Pizza, Naked Juice (It is good for you, but I should definitely cut back). I almost never eat vegetables, so a dramatic change is necessary. I'm only going to get fruits and vegetables, that way I won't eat any crap. Once a month I may treat myself to a baked good (vegan of course.) but other than that, no no no. I'm also going to try fasting (one day, once a month.) I'm doing this to cleanse my organs and just give my poor digestive track a rest. I also watched a thing (and read a book), about calorie restricted diets. They said they help you live longer and I believe it. So one week every month I'm going to try and eat about half as much as I usually do. This prompts your body to go into starvation mode and be more efficient. Of course when I return to normal, I'll probably go into fat storing mode. Hmmm, maybe I need to look at this a bit more. I'll still try it, but if there are any nasty side effects (I'm sure there won't be, but it is always a possibility) I'll quit.


5. I got dance supplies. I ordered some tights and Dance Paws. I got them from Discount Dance Supply (I totally recommend them if you ever have any dance needs.) I got nude colored tights and some fun paint splattered ones. I can't wait to wear my stuff to class!


6. My dance recital party thing was... =( I'm not sure if I mentioned the end of the year dance party/recital was in May. I don't want to make negative comments, but my group's dance and just me in general kind of stank. I'm not going to go on, but I've learned some very important lessons.


7. I'm not going to be a ballerina for at least another year. Since I made the dance team, my parents aren't going to have the money (and time) to take me to ballet, dance, and yoga. I'll just see what happens. As of now the dance team is probably my best bet. Ballet is one of the hardest forms of dance. So by doing this I can get my feet wet before jumping in.

Pretty much all of my posts from now on are going to somehow be related to yoga, dance, flexibility or just health/fitness in general. I can't help it...I'm obsessed!!

Leverage

My life is so lame, I'm about to explain to you the most pecular/interesting day of my life, it is also the closest I'm ever going to get to illegal drugs.

Normally I do not use the restroom in 3rd period, but I really had to go. I walk out into the hallway and something smells like it is burning. My first thought was "cigarettes" but I didn't figure anyone would be dumb enough to smoke cigarettes at school. Apparrently they aren't. I get back to class and I told my teacher. She walked out into the hallway and smelt it. Then she called the front office or school police officer. Of course a few kids in my class had to stick their head out the door and smell it. Most of them were like, "Umm cigarettes don't smell like that, it's pot." My teacher didn't directly state that it was pot, but she didn't deny that it was. It was crazy! I don't think I'll ever look at a bathroom the same way again. I couldn't believe it! I told my parents and they had like a zero reaction to it!
Now I can tell other parents that they should send children to our school because kids smoke pot in the bathrooms!

Really Slow

I just wish it could be next year already. I want to go to high school. The program I'm going to be taking (IB) looks challenging and I want to be challenged. I'm also sick of my schools administration. There are 3 reasons right now

1. Tacky Day (See tacky day post)
2. Buses (I'll explain)
3. Field Day (I'll explain)

Well apparently my bus driver decided to take Friday off. So Friday morning we had a different bus and a different driver. That bus driver told us we would be riding a certain bus number that leaves earlier than our regular bus does. So everyone wrote the bus number down and made sure their younger siblings were aware of the change. We get out there just like the lady said, and what do you know apparently our bus is coming so we have to wait for about 15 minutes in the nice hot 90 degree sun. While we our waiting our principle comes over and starts yelling at us because, we "know" that we aren't supposed to be on that side of the bus loading zone. The side we were on is for little kids. Our bus is not late everyday we do not "know" which side we are supposed to be on. A bus finally came and brought us home.

Field Day. I'm not sure if I said this before, but the next three days I was supposed to help with the elementary kids' field day. I was pretty happy about it because I was missing 1,2, and 3 period. I wasn't too worried either, I'm doing great in all of those classes and they are non-essentials (Reading, Language Arts and Band). I was really excited about it, but you know my dragon lady principal if anyone is going to have fun she has to squash it. She didn't even tell us to our faces. She told the teacher who told us. The P.E. coach was pretty unhappy about it too! She really needed us to help, the teachers don't help and they don't have enough extra staff to help.

So all in all school is hell and I can't wait to leave. You gotta' know it's bad when 'good kids' start saying stuff like this. The dance is on Friday, if they do anything to mess with that, I've had it!

On a happier note, we got our Standardized writing scores back, and guess what? I got a perfect score! I'm so excited. My school takes all the students who get perfect scores to this expensive restaurant. I've never been there before, and I can't wait. I really worked hard on writing that paper. I was confident I got a six (perfect score) when I completed it. I'm glad I at least have that extra boost. I can't wait for the rest of our scores to come back (for Math, Science, and Reading). I know I did well and I hope it shows in my scores.

Tacky Day, Ugghh

Well I officially 100% hate my principal (I know I usually say dislike with atomic intensity, but she is the one thing/person/evil troll in this world that I truly hate.). This week was spirit week at my school. So on different days there were things like Twin Day, Career Day, etc. On each day some teachers judge who is dressed the best (there are 1st 2nd and 3rd prizes). The 1st place usually gets $20 or some gift card. Tuesday was Tacky day. They posted a notice and told everyone the week before that "Plaid shorts and mismatched clothing is allowed." Normally we aren't allowed to wear plaid shorts, so that is what I and the rest of the school (teachers included.) assumed by this message. Well I went full out tacky. I had a neon green wig, uni brow, mustache, wacky make-up, and most importantly insanely layered clothing. I walked to class and people laughed at me and stared because I really looked stupid. It was awesome though. Everyone told me I was going to win for sure; I looked insane! So after the morning announcements me and the rest of the tacky dressed people in my school went into the media center (library) to get judged. I got there a couple of minutes before the other kids (my classroom is closer to the media center). People from the yearbook were taking our pictures, and I couldn't help but smile. I knew I was going to win. The smell of victory was cruelly snatched from my mouth as soon as the Principal walked in. She was screaming say that we were all out of dress code. I wasn't worried. In previous years you could wear clothing over top of a polo (collared) shirt and jeans or other suitable pants. Then she goes to each person and starts yelling at them saying they were supposed to layer their clothing, and they can't wear ties on their head. At that moment my heart literally fell from my body and to the other side of the world. It didn't really sink in. It is what I imagine cows feel like before they are about to be slaughtered. I was waiting for her to come and yell at me. She did. She started pointing out various things that I supposedly "knew were unacceptable". She said that we weren't allowed to layer clothing and she sent some magical memo to everyone telling them this. I went to the deans office and changed my clothing and went back to class. I'm surprised I didn't cry in class. I was so close to tears. I know what you must think, "It was only a stupid contest get over it." Well it wasn't to me. I seriously was looking forward to this all year (I know I'm a bit of a drama queen, but I'm not exaggerating.) I started planning from the beginning of school. I was determined to win this year. I've done it the past two years unsuccessfully. Well anyway, I got back to class and the teacher stopped the lesson and said something along these lines; "You really should have won. We all know you won. It was really unfair what they did." Then my classmates responded with choruses of "Yeah" and different variations of that. I was so mad the whole day, I still have not gotten over what happened and I don't think I ever will. Every single teacher on that campus was on my side, as well as the other students who were "out of dress code". I don't know why the Principal thinks she can get away with this. I'm going to send an email to the news station and hopefully word will get out about what an awful Principal she is. I have to look at her face at honor roll too. I don't want to shake her hand. How can she smile and pretend like everything is cool when it's not. She ruined my day/week, and I want an apology (No actually what I really want is for her to be fired, because I'm not going to accept her apology. I know it is harsh, but she isn't a good principal, and this incident just blew it over the top.) There was absolutely no reason for her to yell at me. I'm the reason why this school has received "A" rating the past couple of years. Without students, like me, who get high scores on standardized tests, this school would be crap. It isn't like I openly disobeyed dress code. She did not send anyone this magical memo about layered clothing not being allowed. My dad says she is probably under a lot of stress from the Superintendent, because of the recession. I really do not care what her problems are. She can get a therapist, she does not need to take it out on students. I really do love the rest of the staff at my school. I'm glad the dean(s) didn't yell at me (I probably would have cried) and they were all really nice. It is unfortunate people like her live in this world. There is no room for them.

When you're right, you're right

The week off of school has been Amaazzing! No beach side chilling or fruit smoothies (although I really wouldn't mind a fruit smoothie). Mostly stuff I like to do, go on the computer, watch ANTM (America's Next Top Model), catch up on school work, and fall in love with...dance! Seriously I can not get enough of ballet! I don't take ballet classes, but recently I've discovered that I'm in love with it. Mostly just the athleticism and flexibility of the girls/guys who are dancers. Anyone who can physically stick their head up their butt is pretty cool in my book! I do take a hip-hop/jazz fusion class every Saturday for an hour, but that is mostly recreational (See I can still use big words, I didn't lose all my brain cells over Spring Break!). Since I'm going to be starting High School next year I'm thinking about taking 3 ballet classes a week as well. There are cost issues involved, but I think I can convince my parents that their money would be well spent. If that doesn't work then I'm just going to have to wait until I can get my own job to pay for the classes. I feel like being away from school is the best thing that could have happened to me. I really need a break from my classmates, I love these people but too much of a good thing is bad. I feel like everything is working in my favor for now. My acne is clearing up! That is the most exciting thing.
My obsessions are short lived and are often replaced by newer things. I just want you to know that I still do often think about most of my obsessions. Homeschooling- My parents were too stubborn so I had to let it go or be pissed off at them every day. Adonis- Yeah he is okay, but I could really care less about him. Clear Skin- Everyone wants it, but sometimes you need time. See that is only 3 obsessions (now 4) in the course of less than a year. I think it is genetic, my dad seems to have obsessions that then fall by the wayside.
We are having an end of the year party thing at my Saturday class and we are performing a piece done to Madonna + Justin Timberlake's song, 4 minutes. We just got the costumes yesterday and they are sweet. I'm not going to describe them, because let's face it we all know I stink at that. One piece was too small so she is ordering me 1 size larger. Once I get that piece I will take a picture of it and post it here. It is so awesome!

Money

I'm getting really frustrated right now. I really want to earn money by doing surveys and that kind of thing, but you have to be 18 or older to complete most of the offers. I have been able to earn $0.90 on (http://cashcrate.com/1250475), but the only thing you can buy with that is some gum. I think it would be a great way for my mom to earn money, but she isn't computer savvy and wouldn't be able to do it. It is called a GPT (Get Paid To). Basically advertisers pay the sites to promote their surveys. Then people fill out the surveys or trial offers and you get a portion of the money the site gets. I might not have explained it well, you can google GPT and find out more info. The site I'm using (http://cashcrate.com/1250475) has a really good reputation. Some sites don't pay you your money, but this one does. It is basically the only one I can join too, because the other ones only allow members 18 or older. Darn, well only 4 more years.

Possiblities.

I think I might have found a possible career option. Choreographer (even though I can't spell it!). I love making up different dances and I think I'm pretty good at it (Of course I think I'm good at everything...Just Kidding, I'm not that conceited!) I made up a dance to the song Move, Shake Drop. It isn't that great right now, but I've got time to perfect it! Not much really going on. I can't wait for spring break!

$90 and nothing to show.

Well I went to ULTA and I bought $90 worth of Urban Decay goodies (for those of you who don't know, Urban Decay is a make-up company. They don't test on animals and have a lot of vegan products.). I feel kind of empty though. I wanted to spend money and I did, but I have buyers remorse and not for the reasons you think. $90 is a lot of money for a 14 year old to spend in one place. I think I just like to surround myself with money. I like to know that I could walk into a store and buy whatever I want. I never do buy anything, and the reason is because I don't want to part with my precious money. It is really annoying me. I mean what good is money going to do if you don't buy stuff! Sometimes the biggest battles you fight are against yourself, and it is weird because sometimes you lose and sometimes you win.

Where is my Instruction manual?

Don't you ever wish life came with an instruction manual? Everything already lined up for you and all you have to do is follow the directions. This could possibly be a problem for people like me who never follow directions (Maybe, that is why my cookies always taste a tiny bit dry!). Still I would like to have some sort of guidelines. Your parents are supposed to teach you how and you have to actually do it. Like with choosing a career, school, or even day to day things like clothes. Sometimes it would just be easier to let someone else make all the decisions, then if it goes bad at least you can blame someone else. I'm just a bit lost and I think my posts are showing that, I will find whatever I'm looking for, but I don't see it in the immediate future.

Desire

I always get into moods where I feel like I have no talent. (It is true, but none the less not nice to say to myself or anyone else.) We had to take a career interest profiler thing at school. I have never been a fan of those. I think they aren't accurate. I take the test and you'd figure it would be easy; just answer questions about your self. Well of course I over analyze it and it does not work out. They ask questions like "Would you like to lay brick or tile?". Then I think, well I'm I going to have to do the math involved in that? Would I only have to do it once? Would I be doing it by myself? One million questions start popping up. I eventually click dislike, and a similar situation happens for the next 130 questions. I get the results and I'm thinking to myself, 'What the heck, am I on crack?!? That is not me at all!' One of the results was Clergy. I was like are you crazy I don't even have religion. So as you can see this stuff is clearly not 100% great. I have to do 2 assignments based on it though so I ended up picking to research the reporter/journalism career path. I took the test twice (I figure it would be more accurate if I took it a second time.) and I got reporter/journalist both times so I think it would be an interesting career to research and possibly do one day.

Moola $$

I have just been having this urge to go and spend money. I want to shop shop shop. Most people "need" more money. Some people seriously are dirt poor, others just want lots of stuff (I fall into the second category). Some people are parents and want to give their kids stuff, and others *ahem* Bill Gates *ahem* have so much money they wipe their butts with $50! So if I had one million dollars to spend this is what I would do.

I would put 3oo,ooo in a high interest savings account. I would put 100,000 in each account though, because that is the only amount that you get back if the bank goes under/is robbed. I would not donate charities I think that is just so annoying. Rich people feel good about themselves if they donate to charity. I think that is the lazy way of doing things. I would want to travel around the world and help people in other countries. I'm just so over everyone here. Of course I would try to set up an animal rights organization. PETA is just a little bit extremist for me and a lot of other people. I wouldn't really care about helping people as much as animals, because the simple truth is people often get on my nerves (classmates, my brother, random people who think they're cool but they're not, etc.). I would not change much about my lifestyle. I would probably hire a private tutor instead of going to school. I would travel more. I would probably wear the same clothes. I don't need a 10,000 dollar dress (and seriously who else does?). I would also probably help my parents pay for their stuff.

That is really all I can think of right now. What would you do with $1,000,000?

Rocket Woman

Well tommorrow is my school's rocket day thing. It is going to awesome, because I get to miss all of my classes. My birthday is on Saturday so that should be fun, but right now I have to do my homework and all that fun stuff, so I'll give you a "real" post on the weekend sometime.

I forgot a question last post so I'll give you and extra spicy one this time.

What makes a question a good question? (this was asked in my reading class earlier today)

I'll give you my answer on my next post.

Yesterday

Yesterday was my mom's Birthday, so we went out to eat at Olive Garden. It was delicious. I really wish that restaurants would list allergens in their food. I do not have food allergies, but I am a vegan so I don't eat cheese and it is very tricky to try and order stuff without cheese. I feel really bad for anyone with any sort of food allergies/intolerance's. It must be hard for them to go to restaurants and have to pick something that won't cause them discomfort. I will not die if I eat cheese (Of course on the inside I probably will, but that doesn't count). People who have deathly allergic reactions are probably going to have some issues with going to an Italian restaurant (Do you want cheese on your 5 cheese lasagna? I mean they must order a ton of cheese at Olive garden.)

Plinking it again

Well I've decided that Plinky is the way to go (I know you'd think I was selling their site or something), but seriously no one cares about that cute thing your dog did or what you had for breakfast so I should blog about something interesting. Today's topic is...

Name a book that changed your mind or opened your eyes.

As you can see by the picture, the book that has opened my eyes is The Jungle by Upton Sinclair. I don't think I will ever forget this book. He paints a vivid picture of what meat factories looked like in the early 1900's (and what they probably look like today). It is really sad, you follow a Lithuanian man as he sturggles in America. Everything around him falls apart. He then runs off to the country and becomes happy and healthy. For some odd reason he returns to Chicago and then you see the political side of things. I thought it was so interesting, the only only thing I didn't like was the last 10 or so pages where it was all about socialism.

Phhf

I'm just kind of uninspired. Weekends tend to do that to me (weekdays tend to do that to me too!). I think I'm just tired. Aw well the show must go on . I've been amazing myself with my keyboarding skills. I can play most Grade 1 pieces with some work (For those of you who don't know Grade 1's are basically the easiest piano pieces. The only easier level is the primer level). That is a progression! If I can ever figure out how to work the stupid connector cord I will put some of my playing on here. So since I'm feeling uninspired I'm going to plink it. I'm using a website called Plinky (Plinky[dot]com). They have interesting prompts to help you get over blogger's block.

You've been invited on a talk show to explain your job to the hosts. What would you say you do on a daily basis?

Yes I do realize I do not have an official title, but I do play an important role as a student of my school. I may not get paid in money, but I do get paid in smiles. For those of you who don't know smiles are the currency on Mars the planet where I currently wish I residing. I'll explain to you what I do. I ride a bus to my job, this allows me time to work on projects I haven't quite finished (a.k.a homework). Once I'm at school I'm herded like a sheep to my classroom. I'm then locked in there for 45 minutes. There are special occasions when I get to go run errands for my teacher. Next I move on to another room. This is my favorite part of the job. Band Class! I basically get to have fun and not worry about getting a good grade. If you can't pass my band class, you seriously are not doing well at all. The next two classes are a blur. Then I get to my second favorite part of the day...my lunch break. I get to enjoy my lunch break in the company of my 5 buddies, 200 obnoxious kids, and 2-5 adults who feel it is their duty to dehumanize you by making you ask permission to do basic things such as go to the bathroom or get a fork. The rest of the day pretty much is slow painful torture. Especially if I'm tired. It isn't difficult work, and that is what is frustrating. I could be watching T.V. and learn more than I do at my job, but hey we've all got to make a living some how.

Okay now here is today's question.

Do you itch or scratch yourself when you are itchy?

I scratch myself. You can scratch an itch, and itch a scratch. Don't try and reverse them. (Itching itches and scratching scratches sounds and possibly looks painful.)

The Freaky thing is

Okay well a few days ago I posed the Question, 'Would you rather by deaf or blind and why?' Well wouldn't you know it, we got into that very same discussion in reading class on that same day (I did not start that discussion just so I would have something to blog about.) Leave it to my reading teacher to make it into some big deeper meaning biblical stuff. I can't remember exactly what she said so I'll give you my version of what she said.

"blah blah The bible says something about eyes lead you not to trust and your ears lead you to trust blah blah Judging things by how they look blah blah."

Just thought that I would share that with you. My Birthday is coming up soon. I'm having a yoga party and it is going to be sweet. Speaking of sweet, My cake is going to be a yellow cake with Vanilla frosting. You omnivores are probably like, "Okay big deal, it is just cake." While you may eat cake often (or not) I get very limited amounts of cake so please deal with my excitement. I didn't realize you can order Vegan cake and frosting mixes. They have everything online. I was just wondering, 'Why can't Wal-Mart carry this stuff?' Then I realized they wouldn't be the greedy corporates that everyone hates if they did that.

Okay here is the Question;

If you could go anywhere in the world right now where would you go?
You would stay there for 2 months, be able to speak that language, it would be free and you could have a travel companion if desired.

Make me a supermodel

That is my newest obsession. If you don't know Make Me a Supermodel is a TV on the Bravo Channel. It has a few of my favorite things all rolled into one.

1. Pretty People (C'mon you know you like pretty people too!)


2. Gay Guys (They are just so innocent and non-threatning, you can't help but love them)


3. Fierce Clothes (The only time I get to see clothing that is expensive is on TV)
4. Amazing Make-up (Seriously wow, that is all I can say. I think the make-up makes the whole supermodel/fierce/awesome look.)

It is also sometimes annoying. On the show they get make overs to make them look edgier or whatever. Of course there are always one or two people who cry over getting their hair cut or dyed. It always bugs me. If I were in their position. I would be like, "You can shave it all off you think it would make me look better!" Obviously people who can't do that don't care too much. It is just hair don't cry over it. You know what it grows back too! When it grows back it looks exactly like it did before! (sarcasm of course)

Today I actually did my homework. I don't know what has come over me. I guess 2 weeks of no homework was enough to make me super bored. At the end of every post from now on I'm going to pose a question. Just one of those If you were stuck on a deserted Island... type of things. So here it is.

If you had to choose to either be deaf or blind, which one would it be and why?

My answer: deaf, I know I have no musical talents so it would not bother me, but take my colors away and forget about it I would just rather die.

Stretching

Yesterday I brought my friend (we'll call her RC for Rocker Chick) to my dance class. They had this whole bring a friend day thing and overall it was a lot of fun. I have a few things I want to talk about then I'll be moving on to the main topic of today's discussion. This class was a lot longer than I'm used to. The last 30 minutes or so I just wanted to leave. I was starving, and I was tired. We did all the stuff we normally do (stretching, warm-up, technique, and then a dance combination). There were a lot of people and 2 in particular that captured my interest. They were obviously friends (or they knew each other) and they had both obviously done some kind of dance before (You don't exactly do a split on the first day you come). The thing that was weird was they were both extremely large. I'm not talking about morbidly obese, they just had thicker limbs and an overall thicker body. I know it isn't all muscle either because it jiggled and muscle does not jiggle. It kind of threw my off. Everyone has this image or stereotype that dancers are all long and thin. One of them had this possessed look on her face whenever she did the combination or the technique exercises. I found it quite humorous. They were very good though and I enjoyed watching them.

As you might know one of my 3 things I want are to be a ballerina (or at least have that flexiblity and muscle). I mean who does not want to be able to kick their foot up to their shoulder? I think I have to really step it up. I've been doing flexibilty excercises every morning. I had to stop because I injured my left hamstring, but it is all better now and I'm taking a much slower pace.

That trip to the dermatologist defintely helped. It hasn't even been a week yet and I'm already seeing improvment.

Unexpected

Today has been filled with unexpected. They aren't really the good or bad kind, but the ones that are kind of just not what you expected. None of them are/were too spectalcular so I'm not going to go into detail. I just feel like anything could happen at any moment.
Today we played a really awesome piece in band (I play the B flat Clarinet, so the same instrument as squidward for those of you who don't know what that is.) It was this whole loco-motive piece. It sounds so amazing! It is fast and slow, and at some points it sounds like a train leaving the station. I'll try to find a recording so you can hear it.
Thank you everyone (When I say everyone I mean all of 3 people) for your comments, especially on acne. I feel less alone.
I don't know if I've ever talked about my dog max (when all else fails talk about your pets). He is a little princess (even though he is a boy). Here I am trying to type on my laptop, and max comes and shoves my computer off to the side (don't worry it didn't get broken). He always has be right in front of you and consume all of your attention. He is so needy, but he always loves you no matter what.
The 8th grade dance is coming up (well in May, but that is the biggest thing I have to look forward to). I was talking about it to the girl who sits next to me on the bus (some of you may remember her as blonde guinea pig). This is how the conversation went.
Me= M Her=BGP

M; Yeah some of my friends said they might not go, and I told them that they have to go because I don't want to go by myself.
BGP; Well someone might ask you.
M; Ummm, yeah okay (sarcasm of course) I think I'm too (air quotes) "Opinionated and snobbish"
BGP; No you aren't. If you were I wouldn't hang out with you.

If I could go back and change that I would also add that I'm not "perhaps externally beautiful". Just in case you are wondering, I do not have self-esteem issues. I'm perfectly comfortable with the way I look (well minus the acne of course). I just feel other people may not like me or whatever, but I don't really care. Boys at my age a extremely imature as well and do not look for anything other than a pretty face.

Update

Well, I've got about 2 minutes before I leave for the bus so I'm going to try and give you a short summary of the past couple of days. I've been taking my standardized tests. They are so easy I breezed right through them and finished them in half of the allowed time. I still have to take one on Science next week. That one is going to be the hardest. Other than that it has been the same old thing. Well I don't want to miss the bus... I'll make another full sized post after school. =)

Wife Swap

I think that would be an interesting show to be on. I would like to see how someone else lived. I also think I'm pretty open-minded so it would be a pretty easy experience (but who doesn't think that they are open-minded?). I just have no idea what kind of family they would pair us up with. I don't really think my family is really psycho. If you've ever watched the show you would get what I'm saying. This one family only ate raw food, and they ate meat. They were like, "Nothing in Nature is bad for you blah blah blah God loves us blah blah." I was like, 'Umm have you heard of poison or salmonella?'
Well, let's see yesterday I finally visited a dermatologist. I got this antibiotic thing and some cream stuff. I'm really crossing my fingers this time. Acne just really stinks and I'm over it. I took pictures to send to Murad. I think I should get more than a refund. I wasted time, money and thought processes on that stupid thing. The amount of frustration I had over it not working was un-BE-lievable. I was even starting to question my diet. I think I needed to take a antibiotic or pill or something, because creams can only do so much. Beauty is only skin deep, but apparently my acne isn't. That is just a metaphor of course.
I'm really thankful, on our way to the Doctor's office we got pulled over by the cops. We were late and my mom was speeding a little bit (12 mph!). Thankfully they only gave us a warning. My mom was already ticked-off that she had to take me to the Dermatologist, and I really did not want here to get any angrier.
I'm going to yoga tonight. I really am not getting the whole "letting go of competition." That is just not me at all. If I'm not the best I'm a loser and I really have to stop with that kind of an attitude. I'll start trying tonight and I'll tell you how it goes.
I hope you have a marvelous day and don't let the boogies get you down! =)

Random Ramblings

Yeah I know the human mind doesn't work on random. Every thought and idea is connected so it is virtually impossible to be "random". Well here is my attempt at it. Daylight savings time stinks. It usually takes me awhile to figure out if we are gaining or losing an hour and then I'm confused for a week because my biological clock is off-set. Darn you Benjamin Franklin! I feel relieved, I finished all my homework. I almost chucked my computer out the window. I hate Microsoft. Bill Gates sure scammed me out of a lot of money, because this system stinks. The next computer I buy will be a mac. PCs just don't cut it. I think this computer probably has another good 3-4 years. It is only two years old now. I should be able to save up for a mac in that amount of time. In case you haven't noticed I've added like 10 new blogs to my following list. I was hoping that if I followed their blog and commented on their blog they would look at my blog and maybe do the same. I'm going to give them a break people are busy, but if none of them have commented within 2 weeks I'm going to be seriously upset. Well I know this post was very negative, but it was a difficult day having my demon brother home all day (he is seriously the most annoying child in the world).

Manifest Destiny

Doesn't that sound like some coolish awesome title that was used way back when. Well it was and it was perfectly fitting for my day. Well I'll start at the beginning. Manifest destiny is a term a Newspaper reporter (in the 1800's) used to define the concept that it is America's destiny to own all the land from sea to shining sea. My take on this is well because "god says" we can kick other people off of their land and claim it as our own it must be okay. I'm not even going to go off on the topic of American land expansion because I had a marvelous day. It started out pretty normal. Rushed out the door, and doing half of my homework on the bus. Then I get to school and I forgot to drop off my band uniform in the band room. We had a concert yesterday in a nearby high school and we had to take our uniforms home. So I dropped it off and I said hi to some other band people. Then as I was walking out the Assistant Principal calls my name. I was in complete shock, I had no idea she knew my name. Usually school officials only know the names of trouble makers and I was just like woow. I even thought she was talking to someone else (there are about 2 other kids at my school with the same first name as me). Anyways apparently at the history fair ceremony- that I missed yesterday-I won $15. I had to miss some more class time (it was reading so like I really care) and go get some papers and fill them out blah, blah. I should be getting the money on Monday. That isn't the end of it. The rest of reading we went to the library so I have 3 books now. Then I went to band. Band is basically going to be free time today and all of next week (we have standardized testing next week so no hard work or homework). Some people listened to recordings of what the judges said about our performance yesterday. Our band director was ticked off, because we should have gotten a little bit of a better rating. We all know the judges didn't want us to get a good score because technically our band director isn't even a director. He is still going to college "learning" to be a band director. I (and pretty much all of the other band kids) think he is as good as or better than any other band director, but our say doesn't matter much. Well then I'm going to the rest of my classes same old same old. Then about half-way through the day some 7th grade band kids come in and there all like, "There is a band rehearsal today, right now." I'm all left in the dust trying to process what this means. I could pretty well guess that I was going to miss math (again not a big loss). Apparently the administration told my band director at his lunch time that he is doing a concert on Monday. I just can't believe that. We usually prepare for a month or more before a concert. Well we get about 3 days. I've got to practice like crazy over the weekend. We are playing 2 really fun songs. We are playing "Born to be Wild" and "Eye of the Tiger". The songs are for the testing pep rally. Before our standardized tests we have these pep rally things. I dislike them with atomic intensity. They mean we get to miss class though and that is all right with me. Nothing really exciting happened the rest of the day, but it was really nice to have all these unexpected surprises. Whether it was my manifest destiny, fate or karma we will really never know.

someday

For some people all they have to look forward too is the future. Maybe someday I'll be pretty, maybe someday I won't be so short, maybe someday people will get some common sense. I'm one of those people. Hopefully the future won't disappoint me. When you are young you have the hope and promise of tomorrow. Tomorrow can always be better. When you get older you're all like, "Dang it when will I stop aging." So essentially you are never happy you can never live in the now. I along with many others are concerned with things you just can't control. For example, you can't really help it if you have to breath the same air as ignorant, arrogant, butt faces, but what you can control is your attitude about it. So don't let anybody bring you down, and please (I know some people are annoying and they deserve it) but don't bring any body else down either.

Rush.

Life is so much like music it is scary. You have the director who is never satisfied no matter how well you do. I guess that would be your boss of some cranky teachers/people. You have the notes which are basically the tasks at hand. What you need to do. Then there are instruments you could think of those as your bodies. So many different kinds shapes and textures, they are also all very hard to get in tune and stay in tune. There are dynamics which make the tasks (notes) ever more so interesting. They add some spice and flavor to an otherwise dull piece. Then there is the subject of today's post the tempo. There are the pieces where there is a definite tempo change and you can anticipate it. Other pieces constantly stay at the same pace, but no matter what you can't help but speeding up or slowing down at certain parts. It is a bit frustrating when you are going along and then you are like, "What's going on? Why is everyone going so fast?" So you try and slow down, but you just make the whole band sound awful. I feel like that is happening to me sometimes. No one just sits and plays board games, or walks outside because they have nothing better to do than enjoy the crisp air. We are basically like the animals raised for meat except we consciously (or more like sub-consciously) inflict this on ourselves. We push and push and push to squeeze all the work and effort out of one item, person, device that it just isn't worth it. For example, okay sure you could have the job from 9-5 get home and rush rush rush, take joey to soccer kevin to football and jenny to dance. Get home, clean and go to sleep. All the while move, move, move. What kind of quality of life is that? I feel like I've been brainwashed. You need to do good in school, go to college, get a good job, and then make money, retire at 60 and start living then. Yeah like I'm really going to want to travel the world when I'm old an ugly (no offense to any seniors out there, some people age quite nicely. I could be one of them but I have a feeling my skin will yet again betray me.) I am just so unsure about things. I'm teetering on the edge of childhood and the rest of my life (I just make this all sound so dramatic, don't I?). I'm only 13 years old and I'm worried about a career. This is nonsense and I better get some sleep. I'll talk to you later. Until then digest my words, hopefully they won't give you gas (but that would only be because they are high in fiber).

Where is the love?

I'm feeling lazy today so I want you to watch this music video. It is so inspiring. If you can try and watch the good one on youtube.com I couldn't embed that one because universal music group disabled it so pooh to them. There are also some other good videos that people made themselves.

Here are the lyrics:

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love, the love, the love?

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
Now ask yourself

Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love?

Sing wit me y'all:
One world, one world (We only got)
One world, one world (That's all we got)
One world, one world
And something's wrong wit it (Yeah)
Something's wrong wit it (Yeah)
Something's wrong wit the wo-wo-world, yeah
We only got
(One world, one world)
That's all we got
(One world, one world)

Thank you.

Two simple words yet they fail me when I need them most. Example, today on the bus the universe granted one of my wishes. Many of you know Adonis well today something happend that goes like this:

Me *walking off the bus*
AD: Oh (insert my name here, of course he said my real name, but I"m not posting that) I forget to tell you... you look nice today. I was going to tell you this morning...(trails off)
Me *Give thumbs up sign and smiles sarcastic like*
AD: *Gives thumbs up back*

I know I know why am I such a dofus? I couldn't even mutter something simple like thank you. I think it is because I'm shy, but we all know that I'm just making excuses so I feel better about my self. I hope to the universe he didn't doesn't won't care that I'm such a jerk. Of course I don't like him any more (that doesn't mean he isn't good looking, but I've come to realize he is just as immature as everyone else). I think this whole thing is like the typical - I love you, thank you drama (If you don't know what I'm talking about it means you have a life and don't watch 9 million hours of TV, and if you do don't feel bad we're all losers at some point in our lives). I think I just have an overall compliment getting problem. I always feel people aren't being geinuine when they give me compliments. Especially if it is someone I don't know well, but that stinks because it is all the more important to be respectful to people you don't know. Anyways I'm sure he doesn't care and he isn't getting all over analitical. There is a really great contest from PETA if you're interested: http://blog.peta.org/archives/2009/02/win_it_wednesda.php

Everything is not going to be alright.

I'm one of those very annoying people who say, "Every thing will be alright" or "It will all work out." It usually does work out for me so I really don't know what to say. I'm usually extremely optimistic, but when triggered I can just roll out the sarcasm (not that I don't do that anyways). I usually tell myself, "Once you believe something is possible, then it is." It is all the power of positive thinking. I really think people could use that now. Eventually you do get what you need. You just really have to believe. If you want to hear about hardships read Upton Sinclair's The Jungle. This guy loses everything. It is a fictional story based off of true events (so Historical Ficition). My thoughts are all jumbled up today, so of course my righting isn't that great. Well that is all I have to say =) use the power.

I'm mad at you, no I'm mad at me

I do this thing were I get severly pissed off, and have these conversations in my head. Example:

Me=Me S=Subconcious (or consicous I have no clue but that little voice that is always right)

Me: Why does the universe dislike me with atomic intensity?

S: Maybe it isn't the universe. Why do you dislike yourself with atomic intensity?

Me: I don't *mutter* *mutter*



Me: Why am I so untalented?

S: Quit wanting things you don't have? *under breath* Spoiled Brat

Me: Why would I want them if I could have them?

S: You have plenty of talents, but not the rare kind.

Me: Oh thanks *rolls eyes*



These are the exact reasons why I believe no one should pay for therapy. Be your own therapist and save yourself a small fortune. I'm banning myself from TV I believe it is making me depressed (I'm serious). I always know that the movie about the person who got what they really wanted is fake and it only happens in movies, but I always have some glimmer of hope that it could happen to me. Or I could be the person who got everything they wanted blah blah. If I did get what I wanted I would just want more and more and there would be no end so I'm limiting the things I want to these 3 on the list right here.

1. Clear Skin (I can't tell you how many years I've wanted this)


2. To do Ballet and do it well. (I don't know why I desire this so but I do and I thorughly believe you should follow your passions)


3. To have someone outside my family tell me I look pretty. (I know so vain, but ugly people need to hear this more than the people who get told 1 million and 1 times a day. I guess it is something pretty sad to want, but I really just never feel like anyone likes me.)

So those are my three. I think 3 is a good number. Okay now more complaints,

I have been realizing over the past week that no one really likes me that much. I mean sure I have friends, but I always have a feeling that if I were gone no one would miss me. (I'm not talking about suicide, ewww I would never ever do that.) You know how you have friends but no best friends. Like when you have to choose partners you are the one who is always left in the dust. That girl is always me. I'm always stuck with someone I didn't want to work with.

Frustration

As you know I've been battling my acne (just imagine a 13 year old girl with cleanser in hand with a fierce expression). Well every where I go I see, "Oh acne is caused because of diet." This makes sense to me 100%. You are what you eat, but I eat no dairy products (have been known to cause acne). I also rarely eat fried or fatty foods. I think it is because I'm just not being patient. If I could have one thing in the whole world that would be it and it stinks because this is the thing I'm working the hardest and it's the one thing I have no control over. There is no "A" for effort in real life. Speaking of real life I hate how adults are always like, "Just wait until you get into the real world." Well then what the heck is this? Am I just practicing living or something. Is this life a lie? I don't get it. Yeah I know it sucks to be you Bills, Kids, Debt, Morgage, blah. I'm tired of hearing it. I will make a pact I should quit complaining about my life because it is so unimaginably boring and annoying to hear people complain. I good thing I didn't start this pact when I started my blog or I would have nothing to blog about. I think there is no point in complaining about something unless you are going to do something about it.
I apologize about my acne rant, I know I will eventually have clear skin but I hate waiting.

All revved up and no one to punch...

Well I've been watching videos on YouTube, and as usual I find ignorant people (this isn't too hard as there are a lot of them). I'm getting kind of tired right now so I'm not going to go on about why everyone should be a vegan blah blah blah the usual crap. Wait...no I have to do that otherwise I would have nothing to talk about. Instead of being all mean I'm going to talk about my newest greatest passion. I want to be a ballerina. I think over the summer I'll take 1-2 online courses instead of 3-5 and instead of those other courses I'll learn 7 years worth of ballet. First I'll need to work on my straddle and side splits (by work on I mean actually get down to the floor). Next I'll have to work on exercising every part of my body. I'm going to do yoga every day (or 6 days a week) over the summer and spend an hour every day learning ballet terms, another hour doing stretches, and if I can find some ballet teaching videos I'll practice a few ballet moves in my house. Then hopefully I'll be able to keep some of this up for next year and then take ballet classes in 2010. I have not clue how well this is going to work out, but I'm going to give it my best. I can do anything I want to!

I think my murad stuff is working great. My skin isn't 100% clear, but I think perhaps I was using the stuff wrong (I don't know how I screw up something that simple but, like I said people are dumb.)

I got a Wii Fit! I got one last week so you aren't missing out on anything. I think it is great and I might use it for my ballet boot camp. I don't like the yoga at all. I don't feel the same as if I actually went to a yoga class and the instructor is really annoying. I do like pretty much everything else. The games are pretty fun. I'm not really into aerobics so of course I would like that so much, but it was still pretty good. Overall I think I'd give it a 8 or a 9 out of 10.

Keyboard, well I think I have great musical talents. The reason I think this is because everyone in my band class can't remember fingering or scales or anything that requires brainpower. I was just kidding about the musical talents thing because I can't tell pitch any better than a tone deaf person. I have learned basic things like Jingle bells and such, and I'm working on the more complicated stuff. My keyboard was really always meant to be fun so I'm not real hard core.

Spanish. As you may or may not know I'm trying my hardest to learn the Spanish tongue. I've enrolled in an online course to learn Spanish and it actually counts as a grade so I'm staying motivated. I do use busuu.com, livemocha.com, and Rosetta Stone too.

Well that is all I have to say for now my other blog 365 days vegan I think I'm just going to delete it because I can't keep up with that. Besides I don't think anyone is that interested in what I eat anyways.

Dream Job

Just recently it dawned on me... I would love to work for Consumer Reports. Think about it, you get to test products and tell other people about them. You would get to try the newest coolest gadgets (all about the gadgets!). They also do tests on food and other stuff sometimes, but it is mostly electronics.
I'm going to dance tomorrow. I'm getting so flexible I can't believe it! By the time 2010 comes around I should be able to do the splits. I think the yoga has helped the most. I do yoga at least once a week and usually twice (or more depending on school).
My other blog 365 days Vegan, is a complete trainwreck. I've been making posts every day (I've only missed 2 so far), but I don't publish the posts because I don't have pictures up. So I'm on the 6th of January and I think that is something I'm going to do this long weekend (Monday is a teacher workday).
Something interesting that happened to me...a bird pooped on my dad and me. My dad said that was the third time a bird had pooped on him.

Fed up

Today I showed a girl on my bus a comic I received (I asked for it of course) from Peta explaining in a comic book form the life of a chicken. She didn't care at all. She even said, "Well people have to eat animals to live." If murder wasn't a crime... I can think of a million witty retorts now, but all I could say at the time was:
*look of shock, horror, disbelief*
Me: Well how do you think I live then?
Her(well call her blonde buddy): Well you excluded, I'm talking about other people.

These were not the exact words but it is the closest approximation I have. Now I understand what other vegans are talking about when they say, "It isn't the food part that's hard it's dealing with all the ***holes." I completely agree with them now. I'm not calling my friend that word (well she isn't even my friend, but I sit with her on the bus and we used to be friends in 6th grade so silence is awkward). We are completely different and bump a lot. She isn't nearly as opinonated as me, and if I want to see how a regular person would react to something I test it on her (so you could call her my guinea pig). I can't test this stuff on my friends, because let's face it they aren't normal. The one thing we do have in common is acne (I know how awful!) but my should be gone soon so we won't have that in common either (we both don't like the "pretty" preps too, me because they are annoying, snotty, narrcassitic, and always have to be the center of attention. Blonde guinea pig, because they get all the male attetion. I also dislike the "pretties" because of that reason, but not so much because all the guys are immature so they can have them.) I'm going to cut this post off before I start ranting off on differences and brains and junk like that!

Hair Cut and other Junk

Well on Thursday I got my hair cut it is super super short (I almost look like a boy, thank goodness I'm petite). I also finished my history fair project thank goodness!

Murad

Well last week my parents ordered a skin care system. Today it finally came! I'm so excited, I really want clear skin and it will be a great way to bring in the new year. Well, I don't have any really exciting news. Today I found out my mom ate organic food as a kid. It wasn't for health reasons though. She grew up on a farm and they didn't have enough money for fertilizer or pesticides, so they didn't use them. I'm pretty sure they ate mostly stuff they grew too. I'm actually looking forward to going back to school (I know what the heck is wrong with me?!?). I think it is mostly because I want to see my friends. I'm sure by the time February rolls around I'll be beggin' for a break.

Hello 2009

Well, sit down and prepare for a long ride. I have to cover Christmas and New Year's Eve in one Post (I really should get a medal for this). I'll start with Christmas since it comes first. My Christmas had three parts; Part 1 Thanksgiving (I consider Thanksgiving Christmas part 1, because it is warming up your eating muscles for Christmas dinner), Part 2 Christmas Day (Presents!), Part 3 Boxing day (The day after Christmas). I need to go a bit more into depth about Part 3. On Part 2 I received a keyboard as a present. However it was not the keyboard I wanted, so on Christmas Part 3 I exchanged it for the keyboard I really wanted. The keyboard is awesome, and if I can ever figure out how to work the connection cord I will put some music on my blog.

Now New Years, Well I think it was the best New Years eve I ever had. That really stinks because it was awful. Previous years have consisted of sitting on the couch watching the ball drop and then going to sleep, so anything can beat that. Well anyways my New Years Resolution is, 365 days Vegan. For a whole year I'm going to take pictures of what I eat. Yeah I know exciting, right? Well my friend told me some guy took pictures of what he ate for a year. He made a book out of it and people bought it. I don't think I'm going to be making a a book, but I do have a blog. It is called 365 days Vegan. The main purpose of the whole thing is to show people what vegans eat. It gets a little old when people always ask me, "What do you eat?". Then they make sure I'm getting enough vitamins. Uggh, it is usually adults too, and they think they are so smart and know more about food. Just because you have eaten more meals than me doesn't mean you know more about nutrition. If I tell people I take a vitamin they usually back off, but some people just don't get it. I hope you have a marvelous 2009, because if you can read all my rants you deserve it!