Bovine Excrement- veggies

I was listening to a podcast I got off iTunes. It is the Vegan Freak Podcast. It is episode 101, and they are talking with a guy called the Angry Hippie. This guy has his own podcast and he talks about politics, animal rights and stupid people (It sounds like my kind of podcast). He was talking about people who say they are vegetarians or vegans, but yet they eat meat, or diary. He calls them bull****atarians. I agree. I know a few people like that. My brother's friend's family eats white meat, but they call themselves vegetarians.
I have an idea forming in my head. I was thinking of doing a presentation at my school about animal rights. Most kids I know love animals, but they have not been shown what really happens to your McNuggets. I think if they saw it they would be disgusted. That is what happened to me. I read a book about how animals are slaughtered, and I became a vegetarian (the real kind). I saw a video by PETA showing the exact cruelties I heard about and I became a vegan. It is a ten minute video, so on a day we are doing nothing in science class (this is science) I thought maybe I could show the video and get the people to do a worksheet about different kinds of animals. Hopefully I would have a lot less meat eaters.
I also have to have a serious talk with my reading teacher about this stupid lexile system. I don't feel like going into detail right now, but basically there is a system in place that discourages loving reading and prevents children from reading books they enjoy.

Delete, Delete, Delete!

I do this thing where I form blog entries, novel ideas, or short stories inside my head. Oh no horrible you; you have creativity!(sarcastic of course) It is starting to bug me. Just when I close my eyes to drift off to dream land BOOM! my mind starts composing blog entries, or poems. That isn't even the worst part, eventually I convince myself *well that doesn't sound half bad* then I go to right and I remember maybe half of what (Just 1 minute ago) I composed. Wanna guess who I'm going to blame for this? Me (No, I'm a kid, remember, that whole I don't accept responsibilties for my actions thing =) ), My Parents (No).....The Public school system! =) Yes! They are not challenging me what so ever! If I had a chance to excercise my mind writing creativily thourghout the day I would not have this problem. This is why my blog is ever so important at this time. If I can't leave the public school system I'm determined to be the biggest pain in the neck who ever lived (Move over Dracula!)
Speaking of Dracula, I found this really great used book store place. You can drop your old books off for credit. Then when you buy books 50% of the payment is in store credit, and 50% in cash. My dad bought four books for me (as well as a puzzle for my mom, a couple books for himself, and a book for my brother; I know you really care about that!) They are

• The Scarlet Letter (Nathaniel Hawthorne)
• The Jungle (Upton Sinclair)
• The Plague Tales (Ann Benson)
• Dracula (Bram Stoker)

As of now I'm looking up vocab words for Dracula, because I'm going to read that first and I'm not a wordy person. My reading teacher better be ready for Monday because there is a storm coming! My class isn't allowed to read books below a certain level (It is called a lexile and some magical system labels books a number between 1-1500, most of the books being 600+). The whole system is stupid to me, if this (http://teacher.scholastic.com/products/sri/pdfs/Lexile_Map.pdf) chart is accurate I've been reading at a high school level since 4th grade.This year my class isn't allowed to read books below 900 because aparently they don't "challenge us enough" (If you want to "challenge us" why are you making me take reading class in the 8th grade?). Well this "novel" we are reading in class (It is required to be read) is a 730 lexile book! So contradicting, I want to scream at her. If she doesn't change it I will get my entire class to refuse to read it! I feel that class is a waste of time anyways and I want my parents to write a note asking me to take another class at that time. My friend at another middle school doesn't have to take reading because she scored above average on the standardized tests. Well guess what, I got a perfect score and I'm wasting 45 minutes a day "learning reading strategies". Hopefully next year will be better, my parents are trying to get me into some elitest program, I have little faith. "Everyone" my dad talks to says how wonderful, great and challenging it is. Well that is what people told me about middle school and here I am in 8th grade waiting for stuff to get harder. I don't want more worksheets, critical review quesitons or logic puzzles.

That is digusting

Well in case you didn't know prior to today I was a vegetarian. I did not eat meat, because of the inhumane ways animals are treated during their miserable lives. Now I am a vegan. For those of you who don't know what a vegan is, it is like a vegetarian except they don't eat diary. Some of them don't eat honey or use leather ethier. I will never eat an animal again. Well the only exception would be if I was stuck out in the wild and I was going to die, that is the only exception. I'm excited though, I'll be able to experiment with different foods. I'm probably going to have to buy most of the food myself. My parent will probably buy me tofu, or some other things, but they aren't going to pay for things like soy milk. They don't understand my views on a lot of things. Oh well. I'm going to try to make up for having expensive food by not asking for things like clothes, movies, games, or anything else. If I could just be homeschooled and have my vegan way life would be perfect, but sometimes that just doesn't happen.

*laugh* *laugh* wait it wasn't even funny!

That title just randomly appeared in my head. My parents aren't even giving me a chance, here is the conversation:

Me: Why can't I be home schooled?
P: Because we don't know anything about it.
Me: What do you need to know?
P: YOU don't understand! You can't just jump into this!!
Me: I would be doing this online and you wouldn't do anything!
P: YOU CAN'T HOME SCHOOL YOURSELF!

This is the point the conversation ends. Notice how my parents strategically avoid the answer, kind of like politicians. I can't understand their logic one bit, but oh well I blame the generation gap. I have dance tomorrow! Yay!
Yesterday I gave a letter to my guidance counselor (apparently she has to approve my online courses). Well actually I gave the letter to a lady at the front desk (guidance counselor GC was in a meeting). Today they call me into the front office saying it's all approved. I go home and check online and guess what? IT isn't! My gosh these people! Good thing the course starts in Nov. otherwise I would be messed up. So that is my compliant about school for today.

What happened to Adonis?

Yes well as you might have noticed, I have not talked about Adonis for awhile. This is troubling me. I'm wondering if I have a disorder where one obbsession gives way to another (Previous: Adonis Current:Homeschool) I should keep track of this, and I'm glad I have my blog to do this. I think I might just be being lazy, but I seriously would much rather prefer to be homeschooled. Who knows by the time my mom comes around, I'll be out of school, so I can't doubt myself for a second. I'm trying to give my mom the silent treatment, this way I'm making her just as mad as her and my teachers are making me. I could try that with my teachers, but I don't talk to them anyways. I need to come up with some new stragtegies. I found a program that I could use to homeschool 100% online, it's free and they have teachers you can call if you need help! My mom has still managed to find an excuse though. My parents and I are going to meet some guy my dad works with, because his daughter is homeschooled. I'm crossing my fingers this will go well. (Don't be evil I really need you to cross your fingers too) Well that is it, I'm off to prison...ooops, I mean it is called school, but is it really?

Genius

Ideas have been poping to me out of no where the past few days and I'm starting to like it. Of course I think these ideas are brillant some other people (*parents*) not so much.

1. Homeschool

• Public School Stinks
• It takes up too much time
• Teachers don't listen
• I'm not LEARNING anything
• the whole system is messed up

Brillant Idea number 2

• Go to sleep when I get home then wake up in the morning and do my homework

My parents really can't disagree with number two (so far). However they refuse to take me out of public school. It goes something like this

blah blah blah No blah blah blah No time blah blah blah Why can't you just do the same thing as everyone else blah blah blah Too much money blah blah blah blah We'll see (which means no, and if you ask about it again I'm taking your iPod away).

But you just wait, next time I ask I'm going to come at them with a powerpoint and index cards. (Oh yeah I'm bad). This reminds me of the time I was in 1st grade and I wanted to take the French offered at the school, mom said no and I didn't argue. Looking back I regret it (I was only seven and I could have only taken it for a year) it stinks. Right now I might be able to speak Frech, but thanks to the people who (supposedly) have my best interests in mind (most of the time) the only language I'm fluent in is English. I'm not mad at my parents it isn't really their falt. They are just small town farm kids. They don't know what a podcast is and my dad recently discovered Youtube. I sometimes feel bad for my mom, she hasn't even experienced the internet world yet.

I'm trying to look at people with out judging them. For instance, there is a guy walking to the bus stop. Instead of ewww fat dude walking to the bus stop, Is that beer in his hand?!?! He looks like a slob, and why does he have on flipflops? I'm also applying this technique to my classroom setting. I am upset at certain classmates because they are okay people when they aren't trying to be the center of attention, or flirt with some one. But if they aren't doing one of those two things they are probably asleep. I think it challenges your brain to have to talk to people you haven't talked to in awhile, or you don't talk to a lot.

Okay well I could go on forever, but I'll stop here. If you are homeschooled or you were or know know anything about it, email me, or leave comment.

Today is Monday, no, Thursday, no wait....

Yeah it has been one of those days. I can't wait for my Rosetta stone it better be here tomorrow or a few people will be getting nasty e-mails. I don't really have time now to go into all the juicy details of my day but I'll give you a few "main ideas". We got a new "acting" band director. He is AWESOME! He is a million bagillion times more fun than our previous director, and I hope he stays. Adonis talked to me today. I talked with a girl (I'll call her B1 blonde1). I also started listening to the audio recording of a Psychology class (pretty interesting). My friend toxic, has been absent for a week and now she is back at school, YAY! Detrimental, however was absent. Tomorrow if it seems like I fell off the face of the Earth it is definetly because of Rosetta Stone. I just wanted you guys to know I didn't forget about you!

Careful what you wish for.

I'm going to start with pretty much the only (useful) thing I did today. (Well Actually I learned some German today to, but that is besides the point, and I'm unintentionally building up suspense). I looked up free online college courses (http://ocw.mit.edu/OcwWeb/web/courses/courses/index.htm). Honestly most of them don't look that hard, of course they are hard for me because I don't have the textbook. I was all worried that college would be hard and blah blah, but the only thing that daunts me now is they give you 1 hour for your mid-term test and 3 hours for your final. YIKES!! a 3 hour long test.
On to my next subject, Religion. This has to do with The Law of Attraction. I'm not an atheist, but I don't believe in "God". I believe in a greater power, but not a god. I also hate the fact that religion and differences among people have caused much hate and suffering. I hate people because they are annoying their religion, race, etc. never even enters my mind. I can't believe people today are still like that, anyways I'm getting off topic. I do believe in The Law of Attraction. It is basically the universe is listening to your every thought and what you give you receive (like a karma system), also you can get anything by imagining it is already yours and vision boards help with this (I'll make a vision board post someday). Anyways, I made my vision board like a month ago, I have it in my room and I look at it everyday and smile. Well on Sunday, my dad said he would order me Rosetta Stone......in Spanish (Latin America). Not exactly what I had in mind (I've been learning German the past 4 months). None the less I'm glad I get Rosetta Stone, I ordered the most expensive version (well my dad paid for it) and it was 429.99 (HEART ATTACK). I'm determined to get my moneys worth and it should help with getting a job, also knowledge is power. What does this have to do with my vision board? Well I put Rosetta Stone on my vision board. I'm still in semi-shock how this has worked out. I'm thinking I should make another larger vision board, because the one I currently have doesn't have enough room for all my ideas. I want to clear one thing up, this is not a wish list type thing, and I'm not using it as such. The majority of my board is covered with Intelligent people, Strong People, and Changes I want to see in the world. The Rosetta Stone thing is one of about 3 material objects on the board. So I'm encouraging you go out and make your own vision board. Just Be careful what you wish for.

Licensed to ride a bike

Seriously I think I need one. Look out world because in two and a half years I will be able to obtain a license (for a car). That is scary considering I have negative five motor skills (yes that is possible). I have enough trouble not running into things or falling over when I'm walking. Now add four wheels and a motor. I've been riding my bike around lately. I don't know why, I just feel like riding my bike. I like the fresh air and the exercise. This is a dialogue I had with a kid on my bus: L= The person M=Me

L= Hey (yeah he doesn't even say my name)
M= Looks over
L= I saw you riding your bike
M=Nods Head
L=Why do you ride your bike?
1 second goes by
L= for exercise? (great now he is calling me fat!)
M=Nods head
L= Why? You're skinny? (Nice save, so apparently I'm not fat)
M= You can be skinny and still be flubby (yes I said flubby)
L= Oh

As you can see this is a mostly one-sided conversation. I didn't even realize it until now. The person I was talking too, he is nice, I guess (I'm trying a new thing where I say nice things about people). He can sometimes be obnoxious, and cuss or made, dumb jokes. I guess most guys are like that, until they grow up. The reason I'm mentioning him is for two reasons (I'll call L Leaf Brain) So here are the two reasons why I mentioned Leaf Brain

1. He is Friends with Adonis!
2. He talks to me randomly out of nowhere

I want to discuss #2. I over-analyze everything people do, I'm constantly watching body language, and every finger tap means something to me. This could just be because I'm female, and I've heard that we tend to do that. I'm not going to discuss this topic any further, because I'll eventually end up making no sense. That is all for today! =D

Yoga, maybe I am like bella....and McDonalds

Today I went to yoga for the first time in 1 month. Unfortunately school has gotten in my way (it always does) so I haven't been able to go at all. I did better than I thought I would. I did lose some of my flexibility, but I'm glad I didn't lose more. I think dance and other exercises have helped as well.

This post isn't supposed to be about me anyways, so one new thing I found out about Bikram yoga. This guy had a knee injury and doctors told him he would never walk again (doctors are soooo dramatic) but he used a serious of 26 yoga positions to heal and now he teaches yoga in a room that is heated to 37 degrees C or above (that is body temp or higher). This is supposed to minimize injury since the room is the same temperature (or higher) as your body. I want to try it, but I'm trying to limit my ambitions since my parents don't have unlimited money. If anyone out there is a dermatologist or knows a dermatologist or goes to a dermatologist, I would love to talk to a dermatologist and see what that job is like. I'm interested in being a dermatologist/ part time yoga instructor.

Wow, I didn't realize how self-centered I am, this post just keeps coming back to me....=(. Well since I'm already off to a bad start let me just say it, McDonald's. I absolutely with every cell in my body hate McDonald's. There was this test on you tube, and this guy put some typical McD. entrees in a glass jar he also put a typical burger that you would buy from a restaurant (not fast food). The results were disgusting. The french fries from McD stayed in their original form for about 8 wks or something. Just think how hard it is for your stomach to break that down!! I read a book called 'Everything you didn't want to know about fast food'. I'm glad that I now know all that stuff. It really slapped me in the face. I wouldn't say that I ate fast food a lot before I read it, but I don't even touch McD food any more. I would recommend that book to anyone. Something else I thought was very eye opening was The story of stuff ( http://storyofstuff.com/ ). I can't even explain that. I thought it was funny and informative. I watched it twice and I would probably watch it again.

I'm very happy right now, I got my first comment. Yay!! The comment is on my first post if you want to read it. Someone said I reminded them of Bella Swan. I think I'm definitely klutzy, but I don't see any other similarities. It is hard for me to self-asses myself. I have one question though. Where is my Edward? =)

das Gift, Dance and time.

Well this is my first post, I've been thinking about this blog for about two weeks. I've also formed numerous posts in my mind, but this is my first post. Okay so to start with I'm not using any real names, I'm making up names for everyone I want to talk about. das Gift is a boy I like. (again this is not his real name, and das Gift is a German word for poison. All the people I like or consider friends have some sort of toxic nature to their name) Well I just started off like a typical teenage girl would "I like this guy.... I not popular.... Everyone hates me..... I want to die" but I'm not like that. Actually I think very differently from my peers and even my parents (except my dad, we're pretty much like mind twins). I have no friends. I'm dead serious, this is my definition of a friend: someone who shares your interests, ideals, and personality. I want someone excatly like me to be friend is bascially what I'm saying. No one in my class is like me, but I found people who are tolerable. Back to das Gift, well he is everything I'm not, and everything that is important. I'm not going to sit here and describe his perfection, but rather my imperfection. I'm not a perfectionist (after a certain point I really don't care) but there are certain things that have to be just right and other things I sometimes overlook. When I do reports, I usually get a lot of sources, but I sometimes overlook length. The problems with other people aren't that they are different, but I am. I think other people are dumb, because they buy too much, are shallow, misinformed, and some people I dislike because they are plain stupid. I'm sure anyone intelligent enough to read a blog isn't like this, but so far the people I've been exposed to are. I'm hoping maybe in adulthood I'll have the perfect life, but I'll still be living in a the same world. My reading teacher (I'll call her buttface) is really superfical. She was asking us to write an essay about what we would do if we were forced to marry someone. She said "What if they were Snotty Sally or Pimple Brown" I thought she was talking about snotty as in bratty, spoiled, stuck up, etc. but she was saying that they have snot running down their face all the time. I really think there is no need for an explanition about pimple brown. That deeply offended me. I have acne, it isn't really bad and it is mostly under control, but people can't control what they look like. I wouldn't critize someone about the way they look if they can't help it. I'm getting completely off topic, well anyways onto dance.
I started this jazz/hiphop dance thing today, and I had a great time. The dance it self was fairly simple, again I had people issues. The instructor was lovely, a lot of charisma, jovial, and she made me feel relaxed and didn't make me feel like an idiot or dummy because I don't know how to dance very well. It was this one girl in my class who also goes to my school (I'll call her Big Mouth or BM for short). BM had this attitude, like snobby. We don't talk much at school so I didn't expect to have an actual conversation with her, but I think she was mad at me for coming. I definetly know it wasn't because I'm better than her that is for sure. Here are my possible explanations:

1. She thinks she is so much better than me at dance that I should be thanking her just to be in the same room.
2. Me and another girl (Butt Brag BB for short, BB goes to my school) just joined the class today and BM might be PO because it was only her and another girl (Georgia, who goes to my school). So she is mad it isn't just her and Georgia.
3. She is mad I joined and I'm taking "her thing" this would make her less unique.

I hope whatever it is she loses the attitude soon. I just hate it when people are pissy and I don't know why. The other girls were fine. The instructor was happy that more people are coming, and she is putting an add out in the paper, so more people are going to be coming. Besides if someone from my class wanted to take Yoga, with me (Yes I do yoga) I would be excited and eager to share tips with them and happy to have someone to discuss yoga with. I guess me and BM just have different personalities, and dance is the only semi-unique thing about her, so she didn't want someone else to "take it". I really don't even care any more.

Well I was watching a show about time, but now I'm watching bring it on again. Shows about time and time travel always blow my mind. It was really awesome, but I'm not a physicist, and I don't feign interest in those subjects. Bring it on again is more my tempo, except I think cheerleaders get a bad rep. They have to train really hard and they do cool flips and stuff. They are the limbo between gymnastics and dancers. I think these movies make their rep. worse. The one lady sounds like a stuck-up, narcissitic, brat.

Well that is it for now. Talk to you later =)